Eating in the Real World!

I never paid attention to calories or serving sizes. I just ate because food is delish and I ate the delish food until I was full. I never cared before. "Why should I?" I always thought. I was young and dumb. Apparently ignorance is bliss when you are young. As an adult? Not so much.

Last night Kyle & I went out on a date. A super spontaneous date. We didn't even know where we were going until we dropped the kids off with his parents. His dad gave us a coupon to PF Changs so we decided to go there. Now, I used to eat there quite often. I'd do happy hours there and dinners there with the husband. I love that place. I used to eat lettuces wraps to start and then move to Changs Spicy Chicken for the main course. Of course having a few Blue Moons while we were at it. Without counting desert I would normally eat around 2,000 calories at just that one meal. Seeing that makes me want to puke. Eww. 2,000 calories in ONE MEAL?! What was I thinking? Or not thinking.

I stared at my phone and the nutritional chart. I couldn't believe it. I was in shock. Then I got all freaked out. How do people eat in the real world?! Would I be stuck eating at home forever?! FOR-EV-ERRR!

I sat there looking freaked out just staring. Trying to wrap my brain around how much I used to eat. How I DIDN'T think I was doing THAT much wrong. I just felt gross.


This was a HUGE wake up call for me. I really need to pay attention to my serving sizes. ESPECIALLY when I go out to eat.

So this time. I did it different. We ordered Lettuces Warps but I only ate one (half a serving). For my main dish, I ordered Spicy Changs Chicken and only ate half (1 and a half servings). My total calorie count was 565. Not too bad. I didn't order any dessert and stuck with water.

I can't lie though, I felt kind of guilty when we left. I kind of felt like I cheated. I have been eating so healthy & do everything right and then I eat this! Urgh. What was I thinking?! It was stupid. Looking back now I just want to kick myself. Really? Am I getting all mad over some damn food? Am I really getting pissed that I ate something that wasn't SUPER healthy even though I was still under my sodium intake for the day, on track with my calories and ate healthy that whole day. I worked out. I had no reason to feel so guilty.

Food is so strange. It's so tasty and you just want to stuff your face but it seems like most of it isn't that good for you. It's stupid.

After last nights dinner I really appreciated cooking more. I actually started to like it...I think. I mean, don't get me wrong, I like going on. But I feel way more comfortable in my own kitchen. I KNOW what I am cooking. I see it. I touch it. I know exactly what is going in my body.

Did I just admit that I kind of liked cooking?! I'd blame it on the wine but I haven't had any since I started this whole lifestyle change. Oddly enough I am totally okay with that. I thought for sure I'd want a glass of wine after the awful day I had yesterday...or even after today because today isn't going so well either. But I don't. I'd rather grab a yogurt and a cup of coffee and just chill out while watching my DVR'd shows. In fact, I will probably do that...but later. I have to finish cleaning my house and get my stuff ready for tomorrows wedding. Oh and Kegan's soccer game and soccer photos tomorrow. Busy busy busy.

But for the next 15 minutes I am going to sit & finish watching the rest of Sex & the City and drink my coffee.

This photo also has ZERO to do with my blog post besides the fact that it is me & I like it.